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★ A lonesome night ★
Saturday, September 19, 2009
today's post is entitled " a lonesome night ". why did i chose such a title ? hmmm, basically, it 's because i took it from the dance concert that i watched just 2 hours ago.in my life, i had way too many lonesome nights on my own . watching that choreographed dance " a lonesome night " was a tearjearker for me. it reflected my life on how many nights that i would feel like dying with no one to hear my pleas.
of course , i am wrong for being so suicidal towards the negative things that are occurring in my life. i was being such a naysayer at the point of time. i tried to die, i lost my faith and most importantly, i lost my identity.
after a good friend brought me back to chapel, i realised that i was trapping myself in my own world. yes . but why did i ? a failed relationship. a ruined family. loneliness . all these formed part of the equation for my misery . so what am i driving at ?
that sermon on that particular sunday gave me hope. yes , i may be lonely now. but i know i can listen to His angel voice on my ipod. well, this may be absurd to some people and view me as some obnoxious religious radical out there. i don't care. now i just want to believe in Him , that He will protect me from all evil. He will give me strength to live.
He will make me smile. yes , i am smiling. smiling reading His words, listening to the voices of His angels. haha . to me , that angel is tae yeon. yup , although i may not understand what she is singing but i can feel the sincerity and warmth in her voice. don't label me as a person with compulsive idol addiction behaviour.
i won't try to commit suicide again. but each time if i encounter something sad, i would turn to Him and pray . while listening to my angel's songs
anyway, the video is the last episode for We Got Married between Tae Yeon and Hyungdon. i m quite sad to see them part. . .
good night tae yeon, my angel.
love tae yeon /