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Monday, November 23, 2009
i am sitting by at the cafe . typing this post. hmmm . . . taking a short respite admidst my busy schedule.life is fast when you want it slow.
i was looking at my friends's photos a moment ago. ( short activation of facebook account ) I realised that each and every one of us have grown so much . people come and go . my mood is rather happy . i am at ease with my inner being .
calmness that i have never felt before. maybe i know it is time for me to go soon . i am not afraid of the end .
hmmm . . . he was a close soccer friend and fan of my Arsenal club. we used to kick balls under the hot scorching afternoon sky and waste time sweating doing nonsense. he have a girlfriend now. they looked so sweet together . ha . i feel happy for him . call it envy . call it self-pity .but i guess that 2 best years of my life can never come back again.
<> playing on my ipod seems to re flect the stillness in my life. i feel peace among the raging storms in my life.
i did what i could . i am putting on a facade in front of everyone . ha . it seems like i really did fortify my defences around me . the mask is perfect. i am impervious to my surroundings so as my surroundings is to i
thank you for making the effort to read my nonsensical laments .
will there be really no suffering when a person dies ?
love tae yeon /