September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
March 2011

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got back some of my exam results. here and there. i did my best. i am quite thankful to Him for blessing me for my results. i have to thank tae yeon voice for keeping me company through the multiple nights that i have to study.

with them around , studying has become efficacious. i thank them. i believe in myself . i shall not let myself slack and continue studying hard. i will get there.

i saw a rather cute fan dedication to tae yeon on youtube. yup , as usual , i will upload it to this site.




the music is quite sad though for some reason that i am not aware of . although the melody is rather saddening, the pictures are nice to enjoy. there are happy and sad moments of my angel. i am learning korean in the december holidays. as the koreans always say : " tae yeon FIGHTING "

i shall " FIGHTING " for the last lap as well.

i still love the voice of my angel who appears to be able to play the violin.loves.

sweet dreams my dearest angel

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not much words for the day . haha .

i m just exhausted. youtubing now. then i shall turn in for the night.





the following video is the start of snsd.



nights my angel

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love. can be painful at times. when you are in a relationship, it may ostensibly be sweet , happy and . . .

but to me, i don't want to be in a relationship. it leads to disappointments, fights and sometimes even ruin your mood to do important stuffs. hmmm. . . maybe it is just not the right one yet. i am happy loving my kim tae yeon at a few thousand miles away . i don't exactly know how far am i from her or her homeplace, jeju. but it is alright.

i wish her good night every night before i close my eyes. wish her good morning each day i wake up. it makes me happy " youtubing " to her . to a certain point, i am obsessed with her. sweet ba. i love her cos she is sweet . and most importantly her voice. i don't know why i feel so emotionally attached to her manyaga/if.

on my itunes, i realised that the play count of that song was 397 on my ipod in a mere two weeks since i got that song through a friend. awesome. the high play rate on my ipod could be because i have not listened to any other songs since i got it.

unrequited love of taeyeon is alright for me. i know that i would not stand a chance. i know that the probability of her reading this blog is lower than the chance of striking lottery . but at least, i want to let myself know that i found myself back through her voice. her voice guided me back to who i m .

i m back . thanks to her.

anyway, if you are a fan of snsd, here is a cute video of tae yeon to enjoy. haha .



sleep well tae yeon

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i loathe gossip mongers and people who spread malicious information.

as usual . school was terrible. up to this point in time, i am still unable to fathom why my classmates whose eyes and pride are terribly high would like to belittle and decimate others. it seems weird and astonishing to me . i am alright at eating alone. don't laugh at me .

they suck . totally. i was just trying to find a table to eat when my classmates ostensibly laughed at me because the table that they were sitting at were full and i just had to find somewhere to seat. embarrassed enough . they had to make it worse by mocking at me. well done.

i will forgive them . i am not a weirdo by the way . it is just the class culture whereby the elitist behaviour prevails. they have the mindset of such that outcasting people or you shall be outcast. i chose not to take part in any of their ridiculing behaviour.

nonetheless, our society functions in the same exact manner as my potrayal as written above. how many a times have we stop and clearly ponder whether to criticise a particular person or not? i doubt that there are many who would think clearly before they act. oftenly , they would just pour vitriol over the person existing problem.

antifans of snsd . so be it. if you don't like them, don't criticise them . don't say they suck and stuff. yup , it is not wrong to dislike someone but at least don't criticise them . try being in their positions.hello, they are just trying to earn a living and entertaining us.

why should mankind do something that demeaning . because of our differences ? nah . i think the main assertion for criticism and gossips and . . . serves to protect the individuals . they conjour images which are simple fake .

wise up people . the society has to change . to become more accomodating and less caustic towards one another.

i loathe my classmates. at least, i admit that.

arrogant and ignorant , immature adults.

before you criticise or mock , think twice or even thrice

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i like this song a lot. it is titled 만약에 (Manyage / If). It is sang by my angel taeyeon for the Korean Drama " Hong Gil Dong " . sweet and mellow. quite sad actually. the irony is that, it cheers up me . =) i love tae yeon. . .

Here is the lyrics for those who do not understand korean ( just like me ) . i m considering to learn korean after my studies in 2 months' time. ha . i would like to visit jeju. i think it 's the birthplace of tae yeon. . .

Tada , the lyrics :

Pronunciation of the song

manyage naega kandamyon

naega tagakandamyon

non ottohke saenggak-halgga

yonggil nael su optgo

manyage niga kandamyon

niga ttonakandamyon

nol ottohke ponaeya halji

jakku kobi nanun kol

naega babo gataso

parabol su baggeman

omnun gol amado

wemyonhalchido morul

ni ma-umgwa tto kuraeso

to morojil sa-iga twelkkabwa

chongmal pabo gataso

saranghanda haji

mo-thanun gon amado

mannam twiye kidarinun apume

sulpun nanalturi

turyowoso-in-ga-bwa

manyage niga ondamyon

niga taga-ondamyon

nan ottohke haeyaman halji

chongmaral su omnun gol

naega babo gataso

parabol su baggeman

omnun gol amado

wemyonhalchido morul

ni ma-umgwa tto kuraeso

to morojil sa-iga twelkkabwa

chongmal pabo gataso

saranghanda haji

mo-thanun gon amado

mannam twiye kidarinun apume

sulpun nanalturi

turyowoso-in-ga-bwa

naega babo gataso

saranghanda haji mothanun gon amado

mannam twiye kidarinun apume

sulpun nanalturi

turyowoso-in-ga-bwa

Korean Lyrics

Title: 만약에

Singer: 태연 (소녀시대)

만약에 내가 간다면

내가 다가간다면

넌 어떻게 생각할까

용길 낼 수 없고

만약에 니가 간다면

니가 떠나간다면

널 어떻게 보내야 할지

자꾸 겁이 나는 걸

내가 바보 같아서

바라볼 수 밖에만

없는 건 아마도

외면할지도 모를

니 마음과 또 그래서

더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

정말 바보 같아서

사랑한다 하지

못하는 건 아마도

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에

슬픈 나날들이

두려워서인가봐

만약에 니가 온다면

니가 다가온다면

난 어떻게 해야만 할지

정말 알 수 없는 걸

내가 바보 같아서

바라볼 수 밖에만

없는 건 아마도

외면할지도 모를

니 마음과 또 그래서

더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

정말 바보같아서

사랑한다 하지

못하는 건 아마도

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에

슬픈 나날들이

두려워서인가봐

내가 바보 같아서

사랑한다 하지 못하는 건 아마도

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에

슬픈 나날들이

두려워서인가봐

it 's literal meaning in english.

If I were to go

If I were to get close to you

What would you think?

I don’t have the courage

If you were to go

If you were to leave

I don’t know how to send you away

It keeps hanging on my mind

Because I’m like a fool

And can only watch you from afar

Your heart may look away from me

And so

We could even become strangers

Just like a fool

I can’t even say that I love you because

We’re afraid of the waits that come upon us

After we meet…

I’ll be painful and sad

If you were to come

If you were to come near me

What would I do?

I really don’t know

Because I’m like a fool

And can only watch you from afar

Your heart may look away from me

And so

We could even become strangers

Just like a fool

I can’t even say that I love you because

We’re afraid of the waits that come upon us

After we meet…

I’ll be painful and sad

Because I’m like a fool

I can’t even say that I love you because

We’re afraid of the waits that come upon us

After we meet…

I’ll be painful and sad

***************************************************************

i like it . so sweet . ha . melts me totally. =)

the youtube video of her song:


love you taeyeon

love tae yeon / comment (0) / back to the top

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today's post is entitled " a lonesome night ". why did i chose such a title ? hmmm, basically, it 's because i took it from the dance concert that i watched just 2 hours ago.

in my life, i had way too many lonesome nights on my own . watching that choreographed dance " a lonesome night " was a tearjearker for me. it reflected my life on how many nights that i would feel like dying with no one to hear my pleas.

of course , i am wrong for being so suicidal towards the negative things that are occurring in my life. i was being such a naysayer at the point of time. i tried to die, i lost my faith and most importantly, i lost my identity.

after a good friend brought me back to chapel, i realised that i was trapping myself in my own world. yes . but why did i ? a failed relationship. a ruined family. loneliness . all these formed part of the equation for my misery . so what am i driving at ?

that sermon on that particular sunday gave me hope. yes , i may be lonely now. but i know i can listen to His angel voice on my ipod. well, this may be absurd to some people and view me as some obnoxious religious radical out there. i don't care. now i just want to believe in Him , that He will protect me from all evil. He will give me strength to live.

He will make me smile. yes , i am smiling. smiling reading His words, listening to the voices of His angels. haha . to me , that angel is tae yeon. yup , although i may not understand what she is singing but i can feel the sincerity and warmth in her voice. don't label me as a person with compulsive idol addiction behaviour.

i won't try to commit suicide again. but each time if i encounter something sad, i would turn to Him and pray . while listening to my angel's songs




anyway, the video is the last episode for We Got Married between Tae Yeon and Hyungdon. i m quite sad to see them part. . .

good night tae yeon, my angel.

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hello. . . i have to thank tae yeon . a member of SNSD for giving me hope in life. hearing her songs such as " If " and " Can You Hear Me " gave me the strength for continuing my journey in life. she has the voice of the angel which touched my soul. i did meet an angel, like what my pastor said. the only thing that is unique is that , i heard her voice on the radio.

i don't know whether will she chance upon this blog one day . but i just want to thank her for giving me hope in life. the hope that she gave was through her music. to some critics out there , they can be skeptical to my motive. but it 's alright i guess . because to me, her voice did in fact helped me pulled through some difficult moments in my life. the irony is that i am not able to comprehend a single word she sang.

fate works uniquely





that 's my source of hope and joy


- hope in her voice -

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got back some of my exam results. here and there. i did my best. i am quite thankful to Him for blessing me for my results. i have to thank tae yeon voice for keeping me company through the multiple nights that i have to study.

with them around , studying has become efficacious. i thank them. i believe in myself . i shall not let myself slack and continue studying hard. i will get there.

i saw a rather cute fan dedication to tae yeon on youtube. yup , as usual , i will upload it to this site.




the music is quite sad though for some reason that i am not aware of . although the melody is rather saddening, the pictures are nice to enjoy. there are happy and sad moments of my angel. i am learning korean in the december holidays. as the koreans always say : " tae yeon FIGHTING "

i shall " FIGHTING " for the last lap as well.

i still love the voice of my angel who appears to be able to play the violin.loves.

sweet dreams my dearest angel

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top

not much words for the day . haha .

i m just exhausted. youtubing now. then i shall turn in for the night.





the following video is the start of snsd.



nights my angel

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top

love. can be painful at times. when you are in a relationship, it may ostensibly be sweet , happy and . . .

but to me, i don't want to be in a relationship. it leads to disappointments, fights and sometimes even ruin your mood to do important stuffs. hmmm. . . maybe it is just not the right one yet. i am happy loving my kim tae yeon at a few thousand miles away . i don't exactly know how far am i from her or her homeplace, jeju. but it is alright.

i wish her good night every night before i close my eyes. wish her good morning each day i wake up. it makes me happy " youtubing " to her . to a certain point, i am obsessed with her. sweet ba. i love her cos she is sweet . and most importantly her voice. i don't know why i feel so emotionally attached to her manyaga/if.

on my itunes, i realised that the play count of that song was 397 on my ipod in a mere two weeks since i got that song through a friend. awesome. the high play rate on my ipod could be because i have not listened to any other songs since i got it.

unrequited love of taeyeon is alright for me. i know that i would not stand a chance. i know that the probability of her reading this blog is lower than the chance of striking lottery . but at least, i want to let myself know that i found myself back through her voice. her voice guided me back to who i m .

i m back . thanks to her.

anyway, if you are a fan of snsd, here is a cute video of tae yeon to enjoy. haha .



sleep well tae yeon

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top

i loathe gossip mongers and people who spread malicious information.

as usual . school was terrible. up to this point in time, i am still unable to fathom why my classmates whose eyes and pride are terribly high would like to belittle and decimate others. it seems weird and astonishing to me . i am alright at eating alone. don't laugh at me .

they suck . totally. i was just trying to find a table to eat when my classmates ostensibly laughed at me because the table that they were sitting at were full and i just had to find somewhere to seat. embarrassed enough . they had to make it worse by mocking at me. well done.

i will forgive them . i am not a weirdo by the way . it is just the class culture whereby the elitist behaviour prevails. they have the mindset of such that outcasting people or you shall be outcast. i chose not to take part in any of their ridiculing behaviour.

nonetheless, our society functions in the same exact manner as my potrayal as written above. how many a times have we stop and clearly ponder whether to criticise a particular person or not? i doubt that there are many who would think clearly before they act. oftenly , they would just pour vitriol over the person existing problem.

antifans of snsd . so be it. if you don't like them, don't criticise them . don't say they suck and stuff. yup , it is not wrong to dislike someone but at least don't criticise them . try being in their positions.hello, they are just trying to earn a living and entertaining us.

why should mankind do something that demeaning . because of our differences ? nah . i think the main assertion for criticism and gossips and . . . serves to protect the individuals . they conjour images which are simple fake .

wise up people . the society has to change . to become more accomodating and less caustic towards one another.

i loathe my classmates. at least, i admit that.

arrogant and ignorant , immature adults.

before you criticise or mock , think twice or even thrice

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top

i like this song a lot. it is titled 만약에 (Manyage / If). It is sang by my angel taeyeon for the Korean Drama " Hong Gil Dong " . sweet and mellow. quite sad actually. the irony is that, it cheers up me . =) i love tae yeon. . .

Here is the lyrics for those who do not understand korean ( just like me ) . i m considering to learn korean after my studies in 2 months' time. ha . i would like to visit jeju. i think it 's the birthplace of tae yeon. . .

Tada , the lyrics :

Pronunciation of the song

manyage naega kandamyon

naega tagakandamyon

non ottohke saenggak-halgga

yonggil nael su optgo

manyage niga kandamyon

niga ttonakandamyon

nol ottohke ponaeya halji

jakku kobi nanun kol

naega babo gataso

parabol su baggeman

omnun gol amado

wemyonhalchido morul

ni ma-umgwa tto kuraeso

to morojil sa-iga twelkkabwa

chongmal pabo gataso

saranghanda haji

mo-thanun gon amado

mannam twiye kidarinun apume

sulpun nanalturi

turyowoso-in-ga-bwa

manyage niga ondamyon

niga taga-ondamyon

nan ottohke haeyaman halji

chongmaral su omnun gol

naega babo gataso

parabol su baggeman

omnun gol amado

wemyonhalchido morul

ni ma-umgwa tto kuraeso

to morojil sa-iga twelkkabwa

chongmal pabo gataso

saranghanda haji

mo-thanun gon amado

mannam twiye kidarinun apume

sulpun nanalturi

turyowoso-in-ga-bwa

naega babo gataso

saranghanda haji mothanun gon amado

mannam twiye kidarinun apume

sulpun nanalturi

turyowoso-in-ga-bwa

Korean Lyrics

Title: 만약에

Singer: 태연 (소녀시대)

만약에 내가 간다면

내가 다가간다면

넌 어떻게 생각할까

용길 낼 수 없고

만약에 니가 간다면

니가 떠나간다면

널 어떻게 보내야 할지

자꾸 겁이 나는 걸

내가 바보 같아서

바라볼 수 밖에만

없는 건 아마도

외면할지도 모를

니 마음과 또 그래서

더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

정말 바보 같아서

사랑한다 하지

못하는 건 아마도

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에

슬픈 나날들이

두려워서인가봐

만약에 니가 온다면

니가 다가온다면

난 어떻게 해야만 할지

정말 알 수 없는 걸

내가 바보 같아서

바라볼 수 밖에만

없는 건 아마도

외면할지도 모를

니 마음과 또 그래서

더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

정말 바보같아서

사랑한다 하지

못하는 건 아마도

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에

슬픈 나날들이

두려워서인가봐

내가 바보 같아서

사랑한다 하지 못하는 건 아마도

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에

슬픈 나날들이

두려워서인가봐

it 's literal meaning in english.

If I were to go

If I were to get close to you

What would you think?

I don’t have the courage

If you were to go

If you were to leave

I don’t know how to send you away

It keeps hanging on my mind

Because I’m like a fool

And can only watch you from afar

Your heart may look away from me

And so

We could even become strangers

Just like a fool

I can’t even say that I love you because

We’re afraid of the waits that come upon us

After we meet…

I’ll be painful and sad

If you were to come

If you were to come near me

What would I do?

I really don’t know

Because I’m like a fool

And can only watch you from afar

Your heart may look away from me

And so

We could even become strangers

Just like a fool

I can’t even say that I love you because

We’re afraid of the waits that come upon us

After we meet…

I’ll be painful and sad

Because I’m like a fool

I can’t even say that I love you because

We’re afraid of the waits that come upon us

After we meet…

I’ll be painful and sad

***************************************************************

i like it . so sweet . ha . melts me totally. =)

the youtube video of her song:


love you taeyeon

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top

today's post is entitled " a lonesome night ". why did i chose such a title ? hmmm, basically, it 's because i took it from the dance concert that i watched just 2 hours ago.

in my life, i had way too many lonesome nights on my own . watching that choreographed dance " a lonesome night " was a tearjearker for me. it reflected my life on how many nights that i would feel like dying with no one to hear my pleas.

of course , i am wrong for being so suicidal towards the negative things that are occurring in my life. i was being such a naysayer at the point of time. i tried to die, i lost my faith and most importantly, i lost my identity.

after a good friend brought me back to chapel, i realised that i was trapping myself in my own world. yes . but why did i ? a failed relationship. a ruined family. loneliness . all these formed part of the equation for my misery . so what am i driving at ?

that sermon on that particular sunday gave me hope. yes , i may be lonely now. but i know i can listen to His angel voice on my ipod. well, this may be absurd to some people and view me as some obnoxious religious radical out there. i don't care. now i just want to believe in Him , that He will protect me from all evil. He will give me strength to live.

He will make me smile. yes , i am smiling. smiling reading His words, listening to the voices of His angels. haha . to me , that angel is tae yeon. yup , although i may not understand what she is singing but i can feel the sincerity and warmth in her voice. don't label me as a person with compulsive idol addiction behaviour.

i won't try to commit suicide again. but each time if i encounter something sad, i would turn to Him and pray . while listening to my angel's songs




anyway, the video is the last episode for We Got Married between Tae Yeon and Hyungdon. i m quite sad to see them part. . .

good night tae yeon, my angel.

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top

hello. . . i have to thank tae yeon . a member of SNSD for giving me hope in life. hearing her songs such as " If " and " Can You Hear Me " gave me the strength for continuing my journey in life. she has the voice of the angel which touched my soul. i did meet an angel, like what my pastor said. the only thing that is unique is that , i heard her voice on the radio.

i don't know whether will she chance upon this blog one day . but i just want to thank her for giving me hope in life. the hope that she gave was through her music. to some critics out there , they can be skeptical to my motive. but it 's alright i guess . because to me, her voice did in fact helped me pulled through some difficult moments in my life. the irony is that i am not able to comprehend a single word she sang.

fate works uniquely





that 's my source of hope and joy


- hope in her voice -

YOUR NAME here / comment (0) / back to the top